Well, it would seem that I haven’t written a blog since October so I thought it was high time I wrote another!
Life has been so busy at this end, Christmas, birthdays, family gatherings, work, school…you know the drill! I decided this year that I would sew less though, I wanted to focus on some technical aspects of sewing that I had not yet attempted. The excitement of 2018 and figuring out I could sew just ran away with me, I couldn’t stop!! I think my Mum told me I’d sewn 100 odd items. Craziness! However, I also wanted to escape social media a little – it’s so easy to become wrapped up in a world that doesn’t really exist and you neglect the one that’s real and in front of you…or at least there’s a feeling of guilt that’s happening. I’m still very present and visible but my ‘screen time’ is very much less than in 2018.
(Photo- Dad and I in our matching sews! Made by me as a gift following his love for my dress)
Social media is amazing and it has its place and serves a purpose but it can also become claustrophobic. Sewing is a hobby for me, one that I adore. It’s a release from the seriousness and occasional sadness of working within a health profession. I love nothing more than coming home, playing with my boy until bedtime and then sitting at my machine and sewing away to my hearts content.
I had to remind myself of this recently because when you place yourself on social media you are inevitably judged. People like your page or they don’t and that’s fine. What isn’t fine is waking up in the morning, realising you’ve lost followers and then overthinking the reasons behind it!!!! What is that all about!!? I cherish my page, my new friends and my wonderful followers…so many of them make me laugh so often with lovely messages and comments but I think I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t fallen in the pitfall of overanalysing! Suddenly my hobby was becoming more about social media statistics than it was sewing! I felt a bit like I needed to be someone I wasn’t.
So, post Christmas the decision was made to slow down and only do what I wanted to do and to be totally true to myself. Social Media has its place but it is not everything – the most important thing is you and the reasons behind why you do what you do and what it is you’re trying to achieve.
For me, sewing started as a new craft – a release from the boredom of single parenting once Jenson is in bed. I started my Zipperfoot Instagram account for two reasons, one I wanted to document my progress and two I didn’t want to bombard my friends on my private account with sewing. The Zipperfoot account is public and so quickly expanded beyond my private account, all of a sudden there were 300. 400, 500 followers to where I am now at 7K…in under a year! It’s an insane number of people who feel like friends, they follow your progress, support your makes and encourage your endeavours. It feels like a crazy whirlwind. I now want to achieve something, what, I’m unsure of but there’s a dream and it’s a crafty dream. Something keeps pushing me and the drive comes from Jenson. I so want to be able to give him the world, well, maybe not the world but opportunities that are currently out of reach. I guess I just want the best for him.
I wonder if everybody goes through these emotions, people trying to build something. It gets to a certain point and you’re so proud. You cherish what you’ve built and you want to make it bigger and you so want for people to enjoy it….to be able to feel your excitement, to see the true you. For me, I always want to be relatable – I want for people to look at my page and think ‘if she can do it, so can I’.
Social Media is full of pitfalls though, you need to permanently remind yourself of who you are, what YOU are trying to achieve and stay true to yourself. There are so many people out there and they’re all striving to achieve something…it may not have started out that way but that’s the road it’s taken, and it’s easy to become distracted by others. They have an amazing vlog…look at her sewing room…she’s sewn 10 items this week…it goes on and on. Now, these thoughts don’t enter my head – I won’t allow it!! I’m ‘out there’ because I love what I do, I’d love to achieve things that will make my son proud…I want him to see that if you work hard, your dreams can come true and you can achieve amazing things. I’m here for my journey, a year ago it didn’t even exist…who knows what it’ll look like in the next year! I live and work within my means and they are modest and honest. More than anything I want to inspire others. As you may have seen from previous blogs…life has taken me on a real journey to date. I’m on my feet now and my quiet voice can be heard amongst a small community. A community that is now at the forefront of what I do in my spare time, a community who unknowingly helped me find myself and fill me with hopes and dreams.
(Photo of my sewing partner and I at the Handmade Fair. @carrie_can_make_it)
Sewing is the passion, Jenson is the drive, I am the belief and the dream? Well, the dream is still sitting at the end of the rainbow. Will I ever reach it…I don’t know but I will have tried and that’s the main thing.
My Instagram account can be found @thezipperfoot
Until next time….!!